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Thursday, June 28, 2007
something i found today that really touched me to tears even after i watched it repeatedly: britain's got talent fianlist, 6 year old connie talbot. her voice is so full of purity and sincerity, it just moves you and fills you witht hat hope that indeed, somewhere over the rainbows, dreams do come true.. she sang it when she was 4 at her grannys funeral... it's her favourite song, cause her granny used to sing it with her before losing her battle with cancer. i'm her bigest fan now.
check her out on youtube:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QWNoiVrJDsE&mode=related&search=
don't know if this link works, but you can always search for her by keying in connie talbot. you'll def be able to find her!
Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?
i still miss you.
kaela @
2:13:00 PM
date:
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
work today at bear shop. really really quiet tdy...i guess cause weekday mornings are like that, and plus no more hols, so no more kids.. hmmm oh but i bought new faded overalls and a polo tee for jayden! =D haha i'm so pathetic right! i don't shop anymore. the only things i spend all my money on are on my bears and their outfits=/ haha gg to make a big ears with nat on fri when we work!! =D haha currently there are 2 bears, fighter and jayden. can't wait fot my new bunny to come home=D will be brainstorming of a name for her!
after work, went down to meet tim and brenda and her family at town.. after which, tim and i went to cine to look for kelvin.. so for the first time in weeks, we finally had a conversation... i was more stunned than chatty... there's my yuan, the yuan i've been so close to for more than a year in front of me. but now, we're acting like acquaintances...
i wanted so much there and then to have him tell me it was all a joke. i'm happy to see him, happy to see he's doing well. and i know he doesn't want anything more...
i've been avoiding town these weeks cause it's the last place we went tgt... and gg there tdy, i see shadows of that day..
i really have no mood for the orientation tmr... maybe i'll phone in sick.
kaela @
11:38:00 PM
date:
advertisement!anyone who wants to work at coffee bean @ bishan let me know yup=D i'l set you up for an interview with the manager. they're urgently hiring=D
kaela @
11:27:00 PM
date:
Monday, June 25, 2007
urgh schedule schedule schedule. so er xin=/ can nvr seem to fit everything in! imagine how i spend close to 600 smses working out my schedule=/
went to sim for enrollment tdy and kinda dozed off during the talk=/ haha gg for orientation on wed ALONE cause liy and qiu don't want to go. but the great thing is, we got in the same group, so we'll be attending all lectures tgt=D
sometimes i'm kinda glad i'm so so so busy. so i won't have much time to do thinking!
while i'm glad to see him moving on happily, i feel kinda sad too... like i'm really easily replaceable... and there's no longer any trace of me left, as though he never knew me... oh well.. as long as he's happy..
work tmr too... just hope my eyes stay okay. tdy was okay till night time, suddenly hurt again.. urgh.
oh and eunice, please take care okay? sigh i know how terrible it feels... but know that i'll always be here, whatevery happens...
if only i could be like you are now.
曲名:我不难过 歌手:孙燕姿 作词:杨明学 作曲:李偲松
又站在你家的门口我们重复沉默
Standing again at your doorstep, we fall into morose silence again.
这样子单方面的守候
This kind of expectation harboured by only one party,
还能多久
How much longer can it last?
终于你开口向我述说他有多温柔
At last, you described to me how gentle she is.
虽然你还握著我的手
Though you are still holding on to my hand,
但我已不在你心中
I am no longer in your heart.
我真的懂 你不是喜新厌旧
I truly understand that you are not favouring the new against the old.
是我 没有
It's me. I haven't,
陪在你身边当你寂寞时候
Stayed by your side when you were lonely.
别再看著我说著你爱过 别太伤痛
Don't look at me and said that I have loved before, and shouldn't be too hurt.
我不难过 这不算什么
I am not sad, this is nothing.
只是为什么眼泪会流我也不懂
It is just that why the tears are flowing, I do not know.
就让我走 让我开始享受自由
Just let me go, and get started in savouring freedom.
回忆很多 你的影子也会充满我生活
There are many memories, and even the shadow of you can fill my life.
我并不懦弱 你比谁都懂
I am not being weak, you of all people should understand this.
虽然寂寞 这会是我 最后的宽容
Though I would be lonely, this shall be my last concession.
抱紧我 再抱紧我
Hug me tightly, and hug me tightly again.
这一份感动 就请你让我留在胸口
This exhilarating captivation, please let me keep it in my chest.
别再说 是你的错
Do not say anymore that it is your fault.
爱到了尽头 是非对错
When love is at its end, there is no right and wrong.
就让它随风 忘了所有 过的比你快活
Let it drift away with the wind, and let us forget everything. I'm living better than you.
真的懂 你不是喜新厌旧
I truly understand that you are not favouring the new against the old.
不要再说 或许这是最好的结果
Do not say anymore that this is, perhaps, the best ending.
现在分手 总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
Breaking up now is better than dragging a relationship without love.
松开你的手 离开你左右
Releasing your hands, leaving your side.
我向前走 这会是我真正的解脱
I am walking forward, this shall be my true release.
obviously the english translation wasn't done by me!
hmmm just kinda felt that this song kinda related to me... i know there's no point hanging on, you said so, everyone says so. i'm really trying... it's just so hard, but i know myself there's no point holding on anymore.. i'm really trying... i've been doing so so much to fill that space you vacated...
nomore... i really don't want anymore. i just want that pain to stop. the reason why i'm packing my schedule is so i can keep pushing you out, so that i won't get any chance to think. but it's tiring...
kaela @
11:29:00 PM
date:
when your msges come in, my heart leaps.but i know, that's not the way you want me to be..
kaela @
12:44:00 AM
date:
Sunday, June 24, 2007
urgh i so so hate eye infections.
nearly died in service today cause my eyes were hurting so so badly. after svc, wanted to cab down to a clinic but 1: no cab stopped , 2: sun was so er-singly hot, and 3: i had no clue where to cab to. eventually found e medical at bb thanks to him, and got er... saved? haha! took mc so didn't have to go to work!
adeline didn't sound too happy. it hink i'll get sacked too=/ shida got fired cause she 'wasn't up to her expectations' . direct quote. sigh. i'll miss shida. i really loved working with her. and she said, next time she buys a bear, i can make it for her.. =(
so anw, i went home and slept like a pig tilll 1030pm=/ terrible i know. urgh
got timetable alr, it's a whole big mess! =/ enrollment's tmr, so see how things go lor. hope i'll be in the same group as liy and qiu~
sigh timetable's really hectic=(
besides sch, i've got at least 6 slots of tuition a week, and at least 3 days (6 hour slots) working at bear shop. plus cg and svc and bs AND the music classes i intend to take, no one will be seeing much of me! haha and if you're wondering why i'm working so hard, it's to pay off uni fees=/
i'm so so tired.
i just wished i still had you around, cause you always gave me a reason to keep on keeping on.
kaela @
11:47:00 PM
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FRIDAY!
Haha recaps=D
oh, my cam's spoilt!!! =/ such a disaster=( sigh...
anw, these are the last pics i took with it.
friday i was dying of boredom at home, so dated kris out to clarke quay tcc to chill. =D
yumyum!
yup we had a really really good time catching up=D cause we can't talk at work! even though i was working on thurs and sat with her! haha=D
ghostly reflections=D
yup so kris accompanied me to echo beats to check out the music sch. it's kinda ulu and all, but the sample music he let me hear struck the deal. once i'm settle in sch, ill most def be taking classes=D and the director's really young, only 30! lol. =D
at night, went for mum's company's function @ the NIGHT SAFARI!!!
haha what my brother said rang true: 'not you see animal, is animal see you' direct quote, hence the bad grammar=D was so so dark lah! and no flash photography was allowed=/
fire breathers
daddy!!
mummy and rainer=D
people at our diner table=D
haha name of the restaurant we ate at!
eee i look fat here=/
mummy!
drums=D
on the tram!
haha priceless!
there're just some things money can't buy. like my dad's face=D
long snake!
haha recycle!
sweet=D
i look so chor lor=/
ranger station , complete with specimens of dead cockroaches (which i refused to pose with) and the old camera in my hands=D
fish!
i like the blue eyes! =D
haha and everyone thought rainer was the elder sibling=/ see how tall he is!
haha even though the night safari's crap, i really enjoyed spending time with my family, been ages since we gone out tgt like this. as in YEARS. =D felt like a lil girl again, and i even got dad to buy me a pretty purse=D haha!
kaela @
4:58:00 PM
date:
Thursday, June 21, 2007
okay quick pictorial update=D
worked today, and bought a champ bear, my very own! it's called jayden=D
jayden and i
savannah-the bear we bought for con's bday
fighter! dad's father's day gift
jayden in a sailor's outfit!
oh and he has a heartbeat!!
my beloved=D which one's cuter? fighter or jayden?
SEC 3 SL CAMP 18-20th june 07
basically, group name's x3me (extreme) i came up with the arrangement=D X for xtraordinary, 3 for group 3, and me forME! haha so it's like extroadinary group 3 and me! x3me!
and we were the overall best group!! i'm so proud of them, they're my pride and joy=Dabove: me teaching them a dance for their campfire item
members: harrison, may pheng, syazwani, khaliesah, samantha, hazel, yingyuan, kimomo, kah meng, zaki, ye jia, christine, javier, kian jiat. and eunice's the instructor.
camp was really fun:day 1 was low elements, problem solving , night activity like candle war and dog and flag=/ haha=D
2nd day, amazing race and dragon boating, and campfire!
day 3, area cleaning=D where the toilet felt like a 6 star hotel's.s super duperbly clean=D
day one low elemets and problem solving
kaela @
11:52:00 PM
date:
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
shit i wanted to come and blog but i'm really tired and there's this random thought i have.
see, i bought a bear for my dad for father's day from my shop, the singapore flag bear dressed in a karate gi=D will upload its pic sooon=D totally adorable. and i've been hugging the bear non stop the moment i got home from the camp!
i don't know. i had a new revelationi regarding bears. they seem to give off a sense of comfort and warmth and company. and they're really nice to hug, cause you feel like someone's hugging you too. so whenever i put it down, i feel odd and go to pick it up for yet another hug=/
2 weeks have passed. time flies. watched the final epi of ge shi zui xiong, and what the guy said abt love, not needing to see each other everyday, and how it can withstand years and defy time, i just wondered....
sigh there's this sharp pain in my heart, and i don't know why... so i'm really dependent on the bear now! lol. haha i'm too tired, i don't kow what i'm saying. havvent rested since last thurs!!
let's see... thurs met with qiu to buy con' s gift and met ian till late, friday had tuition in the morn and sentosa after followed by cg at hougang. totally drained when i got home but then, i had to arise early for work the next day! after work sprinterd (literally) to church and out to dinner with jo till very late, went home to work on the cg booklet. sunday morn, wake early for church, and off to work after. got home really late, totally wiped out and , packed my camping stuff in the middle of the night.
monday got up super early for the camp, and obviously didn't sleep much throughout it. zzz. got back tdy with 3 tuition sets to cover. and so now, i'm so exhausted i feel numb to the exhaustion. and i have work tmr morn...
dad came and took fighter away... that's the name of his bear. he's gg to slp with him. sigh i'll be lonely again!! oh wells.
kaela @
11:21:00 PM
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haha been so ultra busy!
wish i could update now but i have 3 sessions of tuition coming right up in half an hours time stretching till 10pm. and i just broke camp 2 hours ago=/ lol.
and.... sch's starting on 2 july=/ leacing me with only a week plus worth of hols left=/
will update more very very soon=)
kaela @
2:38:00 PM
date:
Saturday, June 16, 2007
long day...
didn't sleep well AT ALL cause it was so *** hot=/ forced myself out of bed early cause had to give tim tuition. and i couldn't do the questions he asked me=/ INITIALLY. haha oh wells. matrices. forgot all abt it.
poured cats and digs and the 188 bus ride to habourfront was terrible. felt like puking the entire journey =/ i get motion sickness pretty quick=/ after the bus ride that seemed half an eternity long, met with cons and her cluster friends. erm... issac, niger, regina, wenfu, kevin, jasmine, kuan kiat, bryant, and... hmmm someone else?
kinda awkward initially cause i really didn't know a single person and they were all pretty chummy alr. but since i was headed to the beach, i was kinda determined to make the most out of my afternoon.haha wasn't too bad, had a mini telematch, competitive volley( which i totally flopped at) , soccer, and captain's ball.
haha plenty of injuries=/ esp when i collided into regina. awfully huge bump on right foot=/ oh and haha! i applied sunblock everywhere except for my face! such an idiot ! so now i'm tomato faced=/
bleah. cons and 2 friends, amanda and ing xi who came along too.
rushed off to meet su for dinner and off to cg at matt's place.
sigh life feels so so hectic! and i have work and services packed for my weekends. and a camp to attend from monday to wed=/
and make up tuitions to give=/
urgh.
okay i know i've been sounding kinda crappy in my blog posts of late, it'll change soon i hope.
i just want a new life.
kaela @
12:55:00 AM
date:
Thursday, June 14, 2007
haha floor in study and bedroom underwent major grinding and repolishing, so house stank of laquer for days, and i couldn't step into study=/ lol. and my blog's so crap=/ i keep promising to upload pics but i never seem to find the time energy or mood to=/ it's amazing i still get hits daily, though i kinda suspect some kind soul refreshes his page countless times everyday to put hits on the counter=/ thanks=)
okay crap blog entry on the way...
i'm moving on i'm moving on i'm moving on.
that's what i tell myself everyday when i awake. i really try to... sometimes i feel like i've been in a long long dream... past few nights i've been having weird dreams... some of us together, some of the end of the world, some of me smoking like an addict, etc... it's just so totally weird=/
past few days were pretty okay i guess busy clearing tuition. guitar cancelled for this week again, meeting with raynor and gang cancelled, (my fault i suspect), and met yiwen who's abt to head off for ns before work at BABW ytd.
work was alright, but i messed up with husky stuffings... didn't stuff hard enough, customer came back again and again to complain and had to restuff... sigh. went with qiu tdy to do the present for cons... really nice, we adopted it as our god child=D savannah=D
will post pics as soon as i upload.
crap i'm a total tech idiot, i can't figure kayden out=/ kayden's my new laptop btw=D
ohoh! and cherith is qiu's temporary new name=D nice right?
i'm weird i'm weird
he's sick, i'm worried. but i can't do anything. sigh why do things have to be this way...
met ian and jeving at beans at night when i went down to look for mag
coincidentally met adeline and ben and kumar.. adeline's flying off for a year aoon.. leacing on sun, but i'm working so ic an't send her off...
my head's a mess. tuition tmr morn at 9, sentosa to celebrate cons birthday with no-one-i-know friends of hers, and cg after. working sat morn, sun day night too. sec 3 sl camp from mon to wed.
anyone has booties? aka shoes you can wear dragon boating. other wise i'll pass it=/
you know the times when you feel like you're so free when you're extremely busy? or how you feel exhilaratingly deliriously happy when you feel just crap and crabby? or how you want something so much but don't want it at the same time?
that's what
CONTRADICTION is. i have plenty of that in my life
and i need
ANTI-CONTRADICTOTY pills.
i want to get over him but i don't want to.
i want to contact him but i don't want to.
i want to move on but i don't want to.
i want to love him still but i don't want to.
i want to continuwe believing but i don't know if i should
i know he wants it all to be over but i don't know if it's entirely true.
i don't want to bother my friends but i want their company
i don't want to feel sad but i want to feel sad. just for awhile
i don't want to appear emotional but i need to, at least when i blog cause i don't show my emotions anywhere else
urgh. this post is so crap. i want a new blog skin
a new identity
don't call me shuhui anymore
i'm
kaela now. i'm a new person. i want to be a happy bear builder, student, family member, friend, musician, teacher, and single.
i want my past to leave. i don't want to let the pain come in. i don't want to collapse anymore cause that's not what he wants. i don't want to hold on anymore cause that's not what he wants. all i want, is for him to be happy and healthy. nothing more. really...
i want to pretend everything was a beautiful dream.
and i'm not going to let anyone else in to crush anymore dreams i have left.
i'm not gg to depend on anyone else.
the old shu is gone. the old shu was insensitive, emotional and dependent. since he really doesn't want shu back, shu's not gg to wait any longer...
i feel torn between 2 personalities, sometimes i forget who i am.
i just want to rest... and not dream anymore...
kaela @
11:52:00 PM
date:
Monday, June 11, 2007
oh yes, and did i mention that our HOMEWORK is to write a BEARY song? lol.
just did mine!
it's called
LOOK THIS WAY
hey everybody look this way
we're the bear builders here to brighten your day
at build-a-bear-workshop, best friends are made
and the love between your bear and you will never ever fade=D
haha short and sweet=)
music goes like...
33213 21 (low5)
333211 1122232
(low 5) 333 44 2123 (low 5)
(low5low5) 22234321 1(low7)(low5)(low6)(low7)1
kaela @
12:56:00 AM
date:
Sunday, June 10, 2007
busy busy busy!!
had svc in the morn, foollowed by a quick meet up with le and went striaght for work=) first proper day at Build-a-bear workshop. did mostly FIB (which i have NO IDEA whatsoever it stands for) i'm guessing..... Free Idiots from Boredom? haha or First Insight on Bears? haha=D family came down to show their love=D yup, mum just got DISCHARGED tdy!! praise the Lord!
haha and he bugged me to buy a laptop from the sale downstairs. and since i was in no circumstances to argue (being the cheery bear builder and having to say 'yes mdm' or 'yes sir' to every customer) haha it's ugly and heavy =/ 2.3 kg. and it's acer=/ but as long as it's usuable, i'm okay. i'm just grudgy abt the weight=/ i wanted 1.8 desperately=/ looks i can always reinnovate, but weight, no can do=/
haha oh yah and FIB consisted of me lugging a husky around, and passing out sticers to kids=) which i like, but is really tiring. and i did most of it alone. it's much more fun with a partner! soon after kris joined me and we started singing. really! hehs=D oh yes and to my horror, xian jun(from 1e3) turned up and pointed me out to his mum=/ i can't imagine what his nmum must have thought, seeing her son's teacher lugging a toy husky around and singing=/
and and and.... my schedule for next week is terrble, falls on all the slots i'm not free=/ i will miss the steamboat at mich's place=(, and the sentosa job on sat! and would have missed church on sunday had i not insisted to change the slot and bear 10 mins of scoldings=/ adeline's really fierce! yup, head manager's adeline, with assistant heads adelina and anderson. all begin with A! ya so adeline's really strict, and poor brina lost her breaks cause of a small mistake=/ wsigh... and next week i got sec 3 sl camp... hope adeline won't slaughter me if i tell her i'm not free=/ polus plus... i intend to swap slots with kristen so that i can work on thurs instead, and go to sentosa on sat... i think she'll sack me on the spot=/ sigh thought it would have been fun, but it's turning out to be kinda stressful....
plus anyone knows anything about ECHO BEATS music production?
oh and urgh. blister on right foot=/
kayys logging off. 3 sets of tuition tmr, plus raynor's farewell party!
kaela @
11:51:00 PM
date:
Saturday, June 09, 2007
had cell group outreach tdy, was fantastic=) had so so much fun, playing pool, bowling, swimming, eating, and bonding and making new friends... james, chin an and dionis came too=)
sigh i don't understand! i'm trying really hard to move on. really really hard... it seems like he's moved on perfectly fine... he's deleted the pic of us on his blog and on his friendster... i guess i should too... went to drop off his stuff at his place. i knew he wasn't in cause he had work. so purposely went at that time and just passed the stuff to his brother thru the gate.. i know everything's pointless now... i just wished it wan't so, but.. choice doesn't lie with me!
i really really want to move on, but suddenly there's this really big empty hole inside me which he used to occupy. no matter how i try to busy myself, i still can't fill that void.. and i'm not interested in looking for another someone as a substitute either. i don't know if i shouoold still remain hipeful or not... buti guess it should be the latter, cause i've never seen him this determined to leave me.. it's as though he really hates me... as though he can't stand the sight or sound or presence of me...
i want to help him, but i'm no longer in the position to anymore... i wish i could lose myself in some activity. in the past i'd drink.. but i know he hates me drinking so i've quit. it's not fair... he just left i'm here i am again to deal withi all this on my own... yes i do have friends, but you guys know that (no one understands the pain and agony i'm gg thru feeling). it's crap, but it's true=/
i wish i knew what to do to get him out of my mind, to be as strong as he is to move on.. but i guess, the main reason holding me back, is that i simply can't bear to see him walk out of my life like that...
i just hope that time helps me forget... i really don't know how to express my thoughts now... it's all a mess... i feel like i have a split personality, where i'm either hyper and happy, or downright moody. i guess i am really dependent on him huh? he's my best friend after all...
i don't need someone else. i just want to find myself back. i want to fill the void he left in me. i don't allow myself to be free anymore. because it's when i'm busy that i don't get to think. i don't want to go to places we went, do things we did.... because i'll just miss him more...
it still feels like a dream, where i woke up one day and found out... he's no longer by my side, loving me, encouraging me, supporting me, advising me, comforting me... i feel like such a failure, like such a terrible person..
yes i know i'm stronger than all this, and in the day, i don't let this side of me show... but i need a channel to pour out what's inside, so i blog. don't worry, i'm not this emotional usually!
right now, i just want to pour myself into my work, tuitions, church and cg, my family, and my music. especially my music. it has begun to fill my void, just a little. i'm probably enrolling into a music school...
right now, i wish i was on a proper holiday. i need to go away somewhere to heal myself. maybe i'll come back with more songs. since no one's free to travel with me, i'll probably travel out alone. maybe to tioman, or thailand, just sonewhere near but still foreign... haha but my parents will never hear of it i guess. urgh! i just want to be set free.
you can fly so high, keep your gaze upon the sky. i'll be praying every step along the way...even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart.. i love you, too much to make you stay... baby fly away...
kaela @
8:57:00 PM
date:
mum's got food poisoning, been admitted into SGH for obervation, placed under the drip...
please pray for her okay?
indeed, new level, new devils. just when i thought things were looking up, everything started collasping again. mum's really ill, i've been ill too (haha my students said my voice sounds very different), he's gone, and now i've only 10 bucks left to my name that i can spend till goodness know when.. and somehow, i feel like there's no one i can talk to. either, i feel that there isn't a need, or i just don't know how to share. haha i've been contradicting myself. part of me is super happy, part of me just wants to sleep and dream. part of me wants to do great things, part of me wants to die sooner. it's weird, but i guess, normal at the same time? hehs.
i know i know i know. i shouldn't be hanging onto him. i can't help it! you can't just wake up one day and say 'hey, i shall love him no longer'. love can't be switched on and off. try as i might to busy myself daily and drive him out of my thoughts and resist that *#%*! (i have no idea what nice work to enter there) urge to text him or call him, (which i pathetically still do) , i just can't! 15 months of being tgt, feels like a really lovely dream. i realised tdy, the common jewellery on me are silver pieces, that mean alot to me. like, the bracelet on my left wrists represents my mum and the quarrel we had that resulted in her leaving the home... a strong reminder never to let that happen again. my cross pendent and ear stud, to listen to His word and feel His love all the time, the ring on my right index finger - him. and my latest addition to my ensemble, a ring bearing a music note on my left index finger. my strong passion for music. haha so much for wearing my heart on my sleeve!
sigh. i miss him so so much.i know i shouldn't, since... he doesn't want to carry on, but i can't help it. in fact i've sworn (which isn't godly), so i've PROMISED not to have a next relationship will my career is established. but you know the feeling right? yes i'm talking abt the one you get when you're all broken up and lonely and you see loving couples holding hands, whispering, so much in love, and you just feel this sharp pain in your heart, and there he is, flooding your mind again. i've packed up his things to return him. (as in his ipod and all that), and the rest of him is still lying around. 15 months worth of him kinda ends up in many places in my house. but i don't want to get rid of them. i just want to live in my memories. i know how pathetic i sound, but i really don't want to move on. not yet. i don't want to lose him completely, so i'm still clinging onto whatever's left.
oh and my kids, if you're reading all this, i'm so sry. i'm supposed to be your highly esteemed ( bleah) teacher, yet here i am sounding like a lost dog=/
i have drafts upon drafts of pics to upload, but i really can't find the mood to now. i promise the pics will be up soon. (many upon which he stars in).
oh well. it's really late now. gg to bed, and hopefully i'll dream...
kaela @
2:54:00 AM
date:
Friday, June 08, 2007
让我们走完这一次完美的结局
好像当初的约定爱着对方一直到老
问自己 爱情的游戏还有没有规则
要怎么面对着问题 说没问题
心里在流泪 骗自己
可是你却对我说
RAP:I put it down on my life
That I love you from the bottom of my heart
Cause you the sweetest thing ever in my life
I cry So many times (Ever since the night you were gone)
So many true lies
But I’m the one that will never ever make you cry and cry
(说好从此后)
说好泪不流
缘份已尽的时候 你不再要借口
风停了 雨顿了 你一定要走
我还站在记忆里 在感 shou
你这该死的温柔 让我心在痛泪在流
就在和你说分手以后 想忘记已不能够
你这该死的温柔 让我止不住颤抖
哪怕有再多的借口 我都无法再去牵你的手
kaela @
3:12:00 PM
date:
Thursday, June 07, 2007
final closure at 1am. i gues there's no turning back, and i'll just have to move on. just be happy okay?
somehow this song kept running through me, reflects exactly how i feel to a t. realise the power of music. it heals, it relates, it expresses our innermost feelings. i'm more determined to work on my music now. i'll really miss you, but i know you just want to move on. so i'll just keep you in my prayers, and hope you'll find true happiness. thanks for the manuy memories, i'll cherish them always..
FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY BROKEN HEART
britney spears.
"Never look back," we said
how was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead,emptiness behindWhere do I go?And you didn't hear
all my joy through my tears
all my hopes through my fears
did you know, still I miss you somehow?
From the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
you were my first love,you were my true lovefrom the first kisses to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even through time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
I never knew love
'til there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart
"Baby," I said,"please stay.Give our love a chance for one more day"we could have worked things outtaking time is what love's all aboutBut you put a dart
through my dreams
through my heartand I'm back where I started again
never thought it would end
From the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
you were my first love,
you were my true love
from the first kisses to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even through time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
I never knew love
'til there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart
You promised yourself
but to somebody else
and you made it so perfectly clearstill I wish you were hereFrom the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
you were my first love,
you were my true love
from the first kisses to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even through time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
I never knew love
'til there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart
"Never look back," we saidhow was I to know I'd miss you so?i'm not looking back anymore, i'll miss you.
kaela @
10:37:00 AM